I. Me. Myself.

25 things about me that i have never said out loud:

1.      Im a dreamer… I dream all the time… about my life, the way I want it to be. It gives me happiness, a reason to smile. I dream about my illustrious career, love and what will I do with the money I wanna have one day!

2.      I love smiling. I believe it’s the only true expression of how nice your heart is feeling. And it is so contagious.

3.      I cant stay hungry. Food is something I just cant resist.

4.      Im a compulsive shopaholic. I always give into the temptation of buying that gadget, or shoe or anything that catches my fancy.

5.      Im happiest when Im travelling.

6.      I love loud music in my car and I often dance while driving and have been embarrassed many times when people notice me doing this. And Yes. I sing to the steering wheel.

7.      Iv never smoked. I came close once… bt cudnt get a hold of a lighter to light the damn thing. Thank God for that.

8.      I love my brother like crazy. When I was five I used to pray to god I got a brother. And I think god gave me the best.

9.      I live in the past! I am still trying to gradually come out of the ugly memories.

10.  Im addicted to TV.

11.  Im very careless.

12.  Im an absurdly slow reader. I haven’t completed ‘The Fountainhead’ in 3 tries.

13.  I can't say 'no' to anybody for anything.

14.  I wanna own a farm house where I want to design my own tree house.

15.  I love dogs.

16.  I can never forget my first real crush (which was more than a crush) when I was in 10th standard. I still adore her. It took me 8 years to finally muster the courage to speak about it with her. And guess what… she knew about it all the while. Now we are good friends and we laugh about it.

17.  I hate to shave. I wudnt do it if I had a choice.

18.  I had the most amazing school life one can imagine. I still have most of my good friends from school.

19.  I love sleeping.

20.  Im a movie buff. I see a movie everyday before I sleep.

21.  I hate city life. Sometimes I have this urge to run away to some secluded island far away from the rat race that people call their lives.

22.  Up until 3 years ago I was afraid of water. Now Im finding excuses to get to a beach. Guess that’s what 3 months in Goa does to people.

23.  As a kid, I dreamed of being a professional football player. I idolized David Beckham.

24.  Im a mumma’s boy. I just love it the way she wakes me up like a baby every morning.

25.  I cant cook to save my life without either cutting/ burning my fingers. The mess I leave behind in the kitchen can’t be described here. But I still secretly enjoy the whole experience of cooking for someone.

:)

You're Gone.

Pain was in the air.
until it descended into my heart,
when you left me
heartbroken.


I still cherish the moments,
when you filled my life
with colors unknown before.


Life had its beauty then.
You lent it a special sweetness.
I saw my hopes fulfilled,
through all the storms and springs.


It was like a dream come true.
It was like two hearts having one feeling.
It was like two souls having one thought.


But now you're gone. Forever.
You've left me alone
in bitter frost and windless air,
snaking along the rails of the past
pondering on what went wrong.

A chocolife.

A lot of people ask me “What does chocolife mean?”. Well here’s the answer…

It’s the life that gives me happiness and contentment.

It’s really hard, while you’re busy withering the storm of every day life, to see things with real perspective, to know what’s important and what is it that you really want from your life.

We have work to pay attention to, people emailing us for information and requesting action, we have phone calls and visitors and a long to-do list and a million chores to run and all of the million errands of our daily reality … and yet, what is important?

Ask yourself this: if you suddenly found out you only had 6 months to live (for whatever reason), would the thing in front of you matter to you?

Would those 20 emails waiting for a response matter? Would the paperwork waiting to be processed matter? Would the work you’re doing matter? Would the meetings you’re supposed to have matter? Would a big car and nice house and high-paying job and cool computer and mobile device and nice shoes and clothes matter?

I’m not saying they wouldn’t matter … but it’s important to ask yourself if they would.

What would matter to you?

For many of us, it’s the loved ones in our lives. If we don’t have loved ones … maybe it’s time we started figuring out why, and addressing that. Maybe we haven’t made time for others, for getting out and meeting others and helping others and being passionate about others. Maybe we have shut ourselves in somehow. Or maybe we do have loved ones in our lives, but we don’t seem to have the time we want to spend with them.

When was the last time you told your loved ones you loved them? Spent good quality time with them, being in the moment?

For many of us, doing work that matters … would matter. That might mean helping others, or making a vital contribution to society, or creating something brilliant and inspiring, or expressing ourselves somehow. It’s not the money that matters, but the impact of the work. Are you doing work that matters?

For many of us, experiencing life would matter — really going all out and feeling the beauty all around us, finding passion in our lives, seeing the world and traveling, being with great people, doing amazing things, eating amazing food, singing, playing.

These are just a few ideas … but what would matter to you?

Its important that you spend at least a little time, and regularly think about this question … figuring out what really matters, finding what makes your chocolife… and start living it.

Because while you might not have only 6 months to live, you really do only have a short time to live. Whether that’s 6 months, 6 years or 60 … it’s just the blink of an eye.

The life you have left is a gift. Cherish it. Enjoy it now, to the fullest. Do what matters, now. Live your chocolife.

:)

I remember you.

I remember you when you’re so far away…
Gone away into your own dreamland;
When you can no more feel the warmth of my hand,
And my heart would still long for you to stay.

I remember you more day by day…
… the karaoke nights
… the useless fights;
& the other silly games we’d play.

I remember you when you come to me in the silence of the night,
… as I listen to that sugar coated voice,
with the speaking silence of a dream
which tells me that every thing would be alright.

I remember you more when I long for your care…
… the vibrant laugh,
… the smiley graph;
& I look up again wishing you were here.

Book Review : P.S. I Love You

A nice plot; a not so nice execution.

The book is about grieving and healing and subtly brings to fore the importance of relationships and the power of love in life.

The plot is really good but I personally feel that Cecilia Ahern could have paid more attention to the emotional bonding between Holly and Gerry (through his letters) – rather than focusing on the lives of everybody around Holly. The book starts off really well, you loose the plot midway with a lot of characters coming in and the story-line becoming a little predictable, but Cecilia manages to grab the attention to end it on a high.

There are moments where you want to laugh with Holly, moments where tears just well-up in your eyes and moments where you drift into memories of the Holly / Gerry in your life.

Plot: Good
Writing Style: Trite and Mediocre
Recommendation: A good read for the romantic-at-heart



Choco Rating: 3.5 / 5

The Simple Pleasures that make my Choco Life

Heres a few moments that make my choco life complete...

Enjoying the sound of silence
Cuddling up and watching a DVD with a loved one
Smell of the first rain
Time alone with a good book
"Life" converstaions with my best pal
My hot cup of tea on a cold day
Going home to a well made bed after a hard day's work
Succumbing to a mid-afternoon nap
Waking up to a clean uncluttered room
Spending time with my family without having to bother about work
Letting a freshly made chocolate chip cookie melt slowly in my mouth with my eyes closed
Watching the sun rise
A hug when i need it
Dew on the grass in the morning
Watching my bro become an achiever in life
Laughing so hard, tears come out of my eyes
Looking into the eyes of a dog when i cuddle it
Going at a 100 kmph on an empty highway
Getting homemade gifts
Splashing in the rain
Going on a roadtrip to nowhere
Being able to cry when i need to
Going back home after months into mums loving arms
A smile from a loved one
Immersing myself into my Xbox all night long
Calvin & Hobbes
Waking up to the sound of birds chirping outside my window in the morning
Getting a call from a loved one, just when I need it
Feeling true love in the eyes of that someone special
Listening to my mums laughter over the phone
A good game of football
Sitting and smiling for no apparent reason
A warm shower after a hard and tiring day
The feeling of being loved and wanted
Listening to the sound of the waterfall
Lying on the bed, watching the fan go round... thinking about my choco life :)

Acknowlegdments:
Hey SB... thanks for inspiring me to do this. And to everyone whos played a role in my choco life. Cheers.